Ever think you are not getting through?

Do you sometimes feel your words are going into the air? You say things to hubby and you get a kinda “a huh” but not really any response?  Yeah, me too.

This year I am working on doing some pre-k teaching to my granddaughter. I am using kindergarten material since she was turning 5 and she seemed to have been doing ok at first. Then she started getting to where she was not so interested and wanted to do things her way. Being a crafty person my self and she was always interested in various crafts I took that approach as well.

School became a bit of a struggle even then. She would get through a page or two of the phonics book and want to quit FOR THE DAY! I would give breaks, call her back and try to go on. She was learning, got the sounds down and began reading. However, she was suddenly “not” be able to read a thing. Last week she told me “I can’t, I am too lazy for school” .  I was really wondering if anything was getting through this smart little girls head.

She plans and is creative. She remembers things. She uses words beyond her years and if she does not know what a word means she will use it and then ask if she used it right.  BUT, do a page of school work and I get “I can’t, I think I will color”.

Friday she came up to me with a balloon. She set it by my serger and said “I am spending Christmas eve here next year. I am going to call Santa up and tell him all I want for Christmas is to be a fairy. When he turns me into a fairy I will be fast and go into the corners and you need to catch me and put me in this balloon”. A short time later she came back with this fabric scrap made into a little dress. She set it next to the balloon and said “You will need to put this dress on me since my clothes will be too big, please catch me and put this on me before you put me in the balloon.”

Thinks like that but “can’t” learn? Hmmmm

The weekend came and sometime over the weekend I was showing my husband the balloon and dress. He picked up the balloon and here she had stuffed some batting in the balloon for a bed!  A bit later I closed our bedroom door and noticed a new sign on it. (Yes, I have signs all over. She puts signs on every door and some other things as well)  The new signs said “My duck is sick”. I was startled and got excited that she actually wrote it. Then, later, I thought “how did she write that, we never used that sentence in any book”. I then wondered if she copied words from something she had there.

Since I watch her all week while her mom works, when she came back this week I was going to ask her. To my surprise when she arrived she went right to her table and took paper and started writing. “The rat is not”  “The cat pecks”   I then asked what she wrote on the sign on my new door. Her reply “My duck is sick” … SHE IS LEARNING!!!  And listening!!!!

Yesterday she not only did a word search game and understood my directions but she, with help on some big words, read a whole page in a Children’s National Geographic magazine.

If you have kids and think they are not listening hang in there! The most likely are.  They will surprise you some day!

That goes for husband’s too ;)

Happy New Year!!!

I went to bed last night in 2011 and woke with a cat jumping on me at 5:08 AM.  Many thoughts were running through my mind at that thud when the biggest cat we own pounced on me. First: Kill the cat!  I usually am up by then, but when I have a day I can sleep in I would love to stay in bed for a bit. Animals just do not understand sleeping in a bit!

Second, I thought about how much I had to get done before my husband’s side has Christmas. Everyone had other places on Christmas day so we are doing it today. Leaves lots to get done.

Third, my thoughts went to my family and how horribly much I miss them all. How I wish Texas was on the East Coast so I could be with them too. I woke hurting and wishing.

THEN: I realized I just woke up in another year! 2012!  How fast the time has gone. I guess that is part of getting older, but I just can’t believe how fast time goes now. I do not accomplish near what I used to and poof, the day is gone, then the week and now…. the year!

In my email today there was a Cybersalt Digest. For those who do not get it I suggest it.  He had a few quotes I will share with you:

“Many years ago I resolved never to bother with New Year’s resolutions, and I’ve stuck with it ever since.”
– Dave Beard

“A New Year’s resolution is something that goes in one year and out the other.”

While the top two are humorous, the next two hit a bit of a chord with me.

We will open the book.  Its pages are blank.  We are going to put words on them ourselves.  The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year’s Day.”
– Edith Lovejoy Pierce

“Every man should be born again on the first day of January.  Start with a fresh page.  Take up one hole more in the buckle if necessary, or let down one, according to circumstances; but on the first of January let every man gird himself once more, with his face to the front, and take no interest in the things that were and are past.”
– Henry Ward Beecher

It is a New Year. We may have failures, hurts, fears and regrets from the past, but we can make changes and begin to move on. A new start.

While not everything can be changed overnight like the year did, we can change our thinking, change attitudes, motives and such.  With me, I will need to keep putting one foot in front of the other. slowly, and purposely reach out to God in faith.  My family. My life changes here. Every fear.

Life is not smooth sailing. This year will be no different I am sure. In fact I am starting mine like many, big financial  expenses hit us at the end of the year (like the washer and dryer both going!  our car goes in the shop Tuesday and I have no idea what that will be) For me this provokes fear.

Clean page? New start? Mind adjustments? A new chapter in life, a new year.

While I can’t write my year and have it stress free, I can change and work on me as I approach the new year. I can draw closer to the Author of the New Year and trust HIM as the blank slate of this year opens up  in HIS plans.

Happy New Year everyone.

He Went To….

Think I am going to say Jareds? No!

First, we do not have money for “fluff” and sometimes find it hard to pay the bills.  We also have 20 grand kids to buy for as well as 8 kids and 7 spouses.  Our kitchen and 2 bathrooms are in a state of remodeling (not by choice but because floors/plumbing or something else made it a necessity). Our washer is clunking and the dryer takes 2 hours to dry a load of clothes.

Get the picture?

My husband had me in the car returning from somewhere when he veered way off course. I asked where we were going, he laughed and told me he knew. I kept wondering and asking and he said for my present. I am thinking “washer?”

We pull into a MALL! We NEVER, NEVER go to a mall!

We walk in and he says “Every kiss begins with….”

Then we walked into Kay’s Jewelers.

I now have a beautiful open heart necklace. He said he has had overtime and we only ever get needs not real gifts, so he was giving me a real gift.

Then the washer started ripping our clothes.  I am not taking the necklace back!

New Schedule

This new schedule is tiring! I still am not able to sleep until Rick is home and still get up early. I have to admit, early is not as early as it was before. Now, I am lucky if I have my coffee in my hand when my granddaughter arrives, before I at least had sipped it!

Last weekend was the first weekend he did not have to work. We still had the cleaning job, but at least he had a day off on Saturday. We were able to spend some time together and it was a blessing.

We realized too, that while we need the money from the cleaning job, we can’t keep up this schedule. It is wearing us down. I guess age the hours are getting to us.  Sundays we go to church (75 miles away) then rush home, change and go to work. Usually there is an interruption making it after 8  till we are home and eating supper. Before we know it Monday is here and we start over again. Wednesday nights I clean by myself. While it is not a tough job it means I need to stay at work till Rick gets off (anywhere from 11:30PM on). All I can do is sit and wait.

More changes are ahead as we try to figure a way to make up the money but have it easier on these bodies and give us a much needed day off on a regular basis.

As I was thinking about this I was reminded by the Lord of how he took care of us through the last 3 + years and how he took care of me while I was a widow. Rick took this job in Faith. The pay was about $7 an hour less than what he was making in his previous job. However, he was working for a church that was straying so far from the truth that we could no longer stay there and God opened this door only 3 miles from home. This business paid more of the insurance than the church did so it saved us over $100 a week right there. We stepped out in faith and took the job knowing it would be only God that would get us through.

Shortly after he took it the plant had a lay off. Each week we prayed he would not lose his job and God kept him there. Then they cut hours to 24 a week. God got us through that without falling behind on a credit card, car loan or other bills. We did have to make smaller medical payments but we got through.

Work picked up, Rick got raises and then a promotion. Still not what he was making, but better than we were.  My cleaning job was a big asset and God used it to get us through and help us make ends meet. For me this was a real faith booster. We had this cleaning job while working at the church and needed the money, yet here we were making so much less and still seeing the needs met.

Now, he is still not making what he did back then and we feel we need to give up the cleaning. This is a real test of my faith.  We are so tired though that we see no answer but to let it go at the end of the year.

I know God will come through. More changes.