Comfort Zone Uprooted

Have you had the “normal” life uprooted? Your comfort zone challenged? Changes that are hard to adjust to?

I know, we all have. Life has a way of changing and we need to go with the program. For me, these changes have been hard going. For about 12 years now it seems I have been forced to adapt more than I have wanted to, I cry for my “normal” to return and cry because I miss it so much. However, my normal and comfort zone was uprooted and pulled from me and, as they say, change is inevitable. Abnormal is now the norm.

Living in Texas has been a hard adjustment. I love my hubby, for sure, but the changes are taking a toll on this body. The heat of summer, the bugs, the drought, the “everything pricks, bites or stings” makes walking barefoot something not advisable and anyone who has known me for any time knows I do not like to wear shoes.

Since we married I have been trying to adjust to being far from family and not seeing grandkids from my side. I am so far no one visits and financially we can’t manage trips like we would like.

Getting older has made all this a huge mountain to me. My health is not doing well and I do not like it!

NOW, hubby has got the promotion he has worked hard for and has become a plant supervisor over a few departments… on second shift. No more 40 hours either, for the most part it is more, and since the job started it has been much more.

Never have I liked second or third shift and it is no exception now. My comfort zone is rattled. Sleep is a thing of the past as I have to get up about 5 to be ready for our granddaughter to arrive. Until he is home I can’t sleep well and usually not at all.

Yesterday an ad came on for a show, not a show I watch but the ad struck me. One guy said something about big changes and the other one said life is change and you need to embrace the change.

Embrace? I embrace things I love, but things I hate?

Hubby’s work had a health fair yesterday and since I was trying to get my cholesterol down and can’t take any meds so am using a few natural things I went to see if they were doing anything in the 3 weeks since I have been working on it. They took my blood pressure and it was high. They tried again and it is high. I am already on meds for it. I was upset to say the least.

After it hit me, changes, fears, loneliness, missing my family, wishing hubby would do some things that he keeps procrastinating and not following through on (yes, they make me boil too!) are taking their toll on me.

Embrace change? Make the best of it? Use it creatively and see it as a blessing? What can’t I change leave in God’s hand to work out?

Comfort zone of me is rattled. However, I am being reminded again my comfort zone needs to be in God and, while I pray and ask His help to work out the change, I am not relaxing in the change and waiting to see what HE does with it.

Real comfort and peace come from our comfort zone in HIM, not in the world. God saw me through and cleared my path for years, yet here I am, still not relaxing and always finding peace in HIS comfort zone.

AHHHHHHHHHH it is comfort.

I still need direction. I have a cleaning job that we worked together and now I need to do during the week myself. We need the money, but I think it is “costing” too much at this point. I am praying about what to do and what HIS will is. It is not my comfort zone to give up money when we need it.

Yes, this job has meant a lot of changes after the many others that were still being adjusted to. We went to church on Monday evening because of the cleaning job on Sunday. We can’t do that now. The list goes on.

He loves his job, I hate the hours but am glad he has a job he likes. I am proud of him for working so hard.

God is blessing, many others have no jobs and his plant is hiring! A good thing in this economy and also a blessing of living here in Texas where job growth is among the country’s best.

So, while I am so exhausted  and lack energy making it hard to relax, I know I need to embrace the new and let go of the fears and worries. I need to let God work things so I can either see my family more or have more peace in the missing them.

What ever changes have come to your life, leave the 2nd guessing, fears, worries and unrest in HIS hands and relax. I am not one for bitterness, so that has not been a problem for me for long times, it may pop up but almost never stays with me, however, some people get bitter and revengeful when something rocks their comfort zone. I have seen this destroy people, families and lives over the years.

If we do not accept change and see it as God allowing it to mold, us all the negative will mold us! My fears worry and upset is molding me by making my blood pressure up for one thing!

Today, and moment by moment through the day, I am going to remember to give it to HIM. For me it takes moment by moment! While I pray and know in my heart He is going to care for it all, I am also trying to “care for it” inside and in my “comfort zone” of worry and fear, anger, impatience and all that goes with it. Moment by moment I need to think and stop and remind myself of where my comfort zone really is! IN HIM!