Does it ever end?

The answer to this question is a hearty YES!!

Today I wonder if it will ever stop.  It seems that things just do not stop hitting. My husband’s job change brought a lot of change in our life. We knew it would, but we were not expecting all the world seeming to fall apart with it.

  • Our electricity decided to act up and we found out fire ants had got into the breaker box on the pole. Of course this was on our part and not the electric company’s part!
  • My husband’s job change meant getting used to getting up early and him working 10 hr days in heat. They have no air conditioning  and it is over 100 outside and with the furnaces and all inside it can get to 120.
  • His job also meant our insurance ended on the 31 of July and his new work does not start till October.
  • July 31 he gets a rash under his arm. We treat it like it was from the heat.
  • August 1st we know it is not heat related, but because of the insurance hangup he does not go to the Dr.
  • August 6 I make him
  • August 7th he has surgery for a bunch of abscessed sweat glands, put on some antibiotic that he reacts to and has to get changed (no insurance to cover it!)
  • All the while this is going on I am babysitting my granddaughter who has an ear infection and 105 fever.
  • I get a call from my daughter in Maine. Her husband has been sick and they now think he has a brain aneurysm. They called back and said it was a mass and they are now trying to figure out what to do.
  • I live in a house that needs lots of work and have a friend coming tomorrow. Working frantically to try to make sure the clutter and baby mess will be cleaned up, I decide to wash the bathroom rugs. One falls apart and breaks the washer.
  • I now have water all over the floor and some very wet rugs

This is only briefly what has been going on.

Romans 8:28 reads

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

I look at it all and wonder “How is this all working together for my good, our good?”  Seems my life has had more downs than ups at times. Why do others seem to have it smoother?

Feel like that?

Well, let me tell you what I have learned:

  • I can get upset and cry, disappointed and stressed, however, I need to look to the Lord and trust HIm
  • If my dependence is on Him, He will not let me down
  • I learned that I can’t do it all, I can’t live this life without His living it through me.
  • God wants our good, wants us to trust Him and what seems like so much adversary is really there to change us to be what He wants. It is there so we can see Him work and our faith built
  • Without adversary we will be weak, wishy washy and have no roots.  Look at other things in life, a tree has to put up with wind and rain and lightening to grow strong roots and be able to stand against all that comes to it. We are not different. All that life brings God is using. We can drift, we can make mistakes, but when we Trust Him He uses it for good.

I am thinking outloud here as I need to remind myself of all this so many times. You see, right now I am at the crying. I know that with our old home, with all the work it needs it takes a lot to try to have it look good inside. I want my friend from PA to see it looking the best it can and instead I have a bigger mess and no washer now. My pride is hurt for what I wanted. I am frustrated. I am tired and burned out. I need to remind myself that I need to trust God to work this all out and give me the wisdom I need.

How about you? Are you on the speed bumps, the hills and valleys also?  Trust Him.  We will make it! Honest we will!